::Plops sitting on a part of the wooden floor under her, feet dangling.::

And family's always been hectic for me. My parents are kind of absent in my life, despite being there as the colossal wealth my family has makes them come off as unapproachable, even for their daughter born into money.

And much of my teenage years were spent with my older brother trying to convince me into well meant but ultimately harebrained schemes. And I was either an object of lust or an pedestal of admiration in school. As a result my relationships with other people are. Strained. To say the least. I don't know if I was ever a good girlfriend or I'm even a good wife to Judai.

There's an expression. "Faking it until you make it", and boy do I feel like a fake, if we're being honest to one another.