*It honestly looked like Yubel was going to argue back for a moment, but she stops long enough to consider what Asuka just said. Her face gradually changes from angry to... a confused realisation, as the words sink in.
She slowly turns away from Asuka in order to look down at her own reflection in the pond beside her. What was looking back was the form of a monster, the monster she chose to be. Maybe she really was terrified of Asuka, and maybe even the others in Juudai's life, because they had identities beyond one goal. Always evolving, always changing... She thought back to Shian's words about being too used to the idea of being a 'protector' and nothing else and how she should just try and ... communicate more with others, to see where it leads.
Though most people would run from her in her current form.
But this was the form she chose to be. She voluntarily stripped herself of her humanity and individuality when she did and it gave her a deep and uncomfortable feeling to think of even wanting to gain even a small amount of that back. For wanting to learn and experience things beyond that. For... thinking she should change, as those around herself and Juudai change.
She slowly reached out and touched the surface of the water with a clawed finger, making the surface ripple.*
Is it... natural to feel guilt if you wish to do something for yourself, but all you've ever known is dedication to another? Is it natural to feel like you are abandoning your position for even thinking that way?
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Her face gradually changes from angry to... a confused realisation, as the words sink in.
She slowly turns away from Asuka in order to look down at her own reflection in the pond beside her. What was looking back was the form of a monster, the monster she chose to be.
Maybe she really was terrified of Asuka, and maybe even the others in Juudai's life, because they had identities beyond one goal. Always evolving, always changing...
She thought back to Shian's words about being too used to the idea of being a 'protector' and nothing else and how she should just try and ... communicate more with others, to see where it leads.
Though most people would run from her in her current form.
But this was the form she chose to be. She voluntarily stripped herself of her humanity and individuality when she did and it gave her a deep and uncomfortable feeling to think of even wanting to gain even a small amount of that back. For wanting to learn and experience things beyond that. For... thinking she should change, as those around herself and Juudai change.
She slowly reached out and touched the surface of the water with a clawed finger, making the surface ripple.*
Is it... natural to feel guilt if you wish to do something for yourself, but all you've ever known is dedication to another?
Is it natural to feel like you are abandoning your position for even thinking that way?