I just don't know where it leaves me.

I'll admit that... I don't like the idea of that change, as I don't know where it leaves me. I don't know where I stand with all this.
Even though I knew that it was a possibility, I always assumed I'd just be fine as I am, as I've always been, that I'd just leave you both to it and just remain as Juudai's protector.

But I've been frustrated that things have been... boring... for me lately. I do not, for a second, have any regrets about being Juudai's protector, I NEVER will, but I feel I have no... place... in this part of Juudai's life. I've felt like I could only communicate with him physically at SAI and that I could not do that here and now, in the future, he may be spending more time... here.
I felt, maybe, I would no longer be able to communicate with him as much... because I am aware of your dislike of me, so I always just avoided you. Avoided talking with you. Just because I did not want to upset Juudai, by angering you with my presence.
Because a lot of the time *I* felt angry in your presence.

Then someone convinced me I should start trying to... talk... to the others in Juudai's life, in an effort to feel less... stagnated.

And you're the one I feel I don't know where I stand with the most.
And the one Juudai has wished for me to... talk to... the most.

So here I am.
Talking.