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*Late in the evening, Yubel can be seen sat on top of the roof above Juudai and Asuka's apartment. For most people who live there, this tends to be a fairly common sight most nights.
She sits there, watching, waiting and mostly keeping to herself.
Though tonight the look on her face seems a little more troubled than usual.
Dare you approach her and see what's wrong?*
She sits there, watching, waiting and mostly keeping to herself.
Though tonight the look on her face seems a little more troubled than usual.
Dare you approach her and see what's wrong?*
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Why would someone like you care?
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Really, though, you're sour. And I know sour really well, since that's my mood 90% of the time.
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Very well.
*With that she stands up and jumps off the roof, scaling over the wall perimeter of Sakana and landing on the street where Shian is stood. She then sits down on the sidewalk with a huff, leaning against the wall, crossing her arms and legs as she does.*
Things are changing... and I don't like it.
But things are kind of boring as they are... and I don't like that either.
I'm frustrated and I don't know how to feel about certain things that may cause the changes in the near future, so I just feel angry over them...
... even though it's something I expected would happen sooner or later.
*Well that's... vague... but it's a start.*
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When I'm like this, it's usually because I've been stuck in a cycle of doing something, so...*
So basically, you've been stuck in a rut so far? I won't ask you to go into detail or something, but... like on what scale would you say that things are changing? Is it just a change to your routine, or is it a change with how you'd be able to live?
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Things may just get more boring! And I just... URGH, I have no idea! What can I do if I can't do the very purpose I even exist for?!
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... Do you feel like you're being pushed out of their life, then? As a result of these changes.
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A little.
The one part of their life where I feel I can even communicate with them, is the part they're thinking of doing less in and the other part I...
... I have no place in that part.
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I ended up managing to work past it after some awkward stuff, but I guess a question here is: Do you have any other way to do what it is you're meant to do? Any other way to communicate with them?
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But I feel I can't let my guard down, even for a moment.
And I guess I can communicate privately... telepathically, if you will... but, the changes mean they'll be more busy with the part of their life I feel I don't belong in.
Communicating physically is a challenge. There's someone else in their life who isn't on good terms with me, nor me with them, so I just avoid them.
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Like... *they rub their head a bit* I dunno, it sounds like you kinda got used to the idea of just being around as a protector, and that you'd be happy long as that didn't change. But that might've stagnated the ability to really communicate with... anyone else?
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But... they have more than just me.
A long time ago... I used to hurt those who got to close to them. I was... possessive.
They've taught me otherwise, since, but I still struggle... with feeling that way.
So I rarely communicated with the others in their life. I feared I would drive them away. That I'd say the wrong thing. That I'd hurt the one I care about by doing so.
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Well... It's just me, and you can correct me if I'm wrong. But wouldn't they be happier if you tried to talk to others, too?
You say you had problems with that before, and I think it's fair to be afraid of repeating them... But you don't really get past something like that by avoiding it outright.
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They have wanted me to try and communicate with others in the past, so I could learn beyond what they have taught me, but other than a select few... I mostly refused.
But, fine. I'll... try.
I'll try to talk to others.
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But hey, it's a start right here, right?
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*She pauses momentarily.*
Thank you.
For the advice.
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It's... No problem, I guess. I think it's just something that's coming more and more naturally to me. Disturbingly so.
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It's a good ability to have.
*Then with a few flaps of her wings, she propells herself back up onto the roof.*
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Waves at least as she goes back to her rooftop place, and starts walking after a few moments.
How do I get myself into those types of situations? Ah, well. Hopefully it did help...*